Starting to be without you (but I feel i can't)

all this time i would like to thank God for the days we were together. i still can't believe you allowed youself to be with me despite our current situation. delaying my flight and having another month here is a blessing in disguise. i was given a chance to express how much i love and i care for you and share each day, each moment of happiness, laughter and drama.
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i don't really want to say good bye to you because i don't want to let this relationship end in my departure. i wanted to hold you and kiss you even though it is not right; for just one chance i could have and i would like to give it. i love you so much and my love really took a long hard time realizing and feeling it. if only time permits i wanna be with you but the reality is here and i have to go in it.
but i still believe that when there is destiny, no matter the reality is, it will come over it, but i still don't know what kind of destiny i would be taking.
i will really miss you, so so much that i just can't leave it behind because of the many moments only the two of us had.
i wanted to shout to the world that i love you, regardless of whatever reactions that will come. it is not wrong to love someone like you. if things are wrong i should have avoided and do the right things in the first place...but i guess loving you is never wrong.

(to be continued...)