The Battle of Two Emotions

this is the day when i start finding myself confused, nervous, lost and sorry and at the same time, joyous, excited and fulfilled.
i have to let go of some things in exchange for other things to come, but i just can't let go of them because it is so precious to me.
i learned many great incomparable things but i am afraid of getting knowledge and others that somehow might be incomparable in a different environment.
i have to play the songs i really like to play and sing to everybody who is so dear to me, because so far i don't know if i could play the songs to them in not so long time.
i would like to compose a song for the one i love (on my own) but i really need to be alone and emotional for some time before i can do it.
i would like to spend the last days here with the circle of friends i have because i won't be able to see them "live" by my two naked eyes.
i have to sacrifice my democratic life for a better disciplined surrounding.

(to be continued...)